Back… Again

There it is, is it back…? Back again
That hurting foresight, a past foreseen
Maybe the impossible might just happen…
The lightening may just strike… a second time
Giving rise to wounds that would never heal
Tried to stare down into the barrel of Future
Hoped for a cure… to overcome the past
Dreamt of a life, filled with that care
Looked at a heavenly bond to share
At the end of the unending dark tunnel
Thought… I saw a shimmer of heavenly blissful light
Pulled myself along, trying to get myself closer to it
Felt my energy… replenishing itself
Basking in the glory of that shine
Don’t know if that light is the true healer
Or is it just an oncoming train,
on whose tracks… I’ve tread for so long
Bearing the unevenness thrown at me…
The future is unknown… Hope still and will remain
Efforts shall try to strengthen itself
The Devil grins on one side and the Angel glares on the other
Decisions to be taken, to be made or just forced upon
To stay above or below the horizon

Still Loving You

You’re gone… but your memories remain
In thy thoughts… I’ve become insane
Never will things become the same
That they were… in the presence of your name

I’ve turned completely into a fiend
The one, you promised to ever remain a friend
But you left… for reasons mystery bound
I will never be able to return to stable ground

The Love still remains, as long as this breath
But this mind’s domain… craving for death
As it has only caused trouble to other’s health
You were the one… the only one, a true wealth

Cherishing thy thoughts… am still loving you
Hopes of a future… just a faintly few
You achieved thy goal… that of eternal bliss
In the queue and still loving you… waiting for death’s kiss

The Johny

Ain’t no Song

Just sitting amidst this flickering light
Wondering how am I gonna spend the night
Will I have to again put up a fight?
Why can’t things always go on right?
Thinking of my existence… is there a reason
Is my relationship with others a treason?
Will this go on… for every season
In the horizon… Is it rising or setting, the sun?
Have been living so long, like a leech
It seems nothing’s left… no sensible speech
Every bond of life… seems to be nearing a breach
Feelings within are all out of reach
Have pulled these things… far too long
It seems to be ending, like a faint song
Times been swinging, on a ping pong
Striving to come through and remain strong
Enough of clinging… like a vine
Put an end to it and strengthen the spine
Life ain’t gonna be a straight line
Have a future to build… be it fine

The Johny

In thy absence...

Barren lands, bald trees, murky waters… is all that is seen

You left and along with you… went all the glee, wiped out clean

Things have turned gloomy and troubles are running free

Without you, I am unable to be the one I used to be

Up in the sky… the stars don’t seem so bright

The moon is in hiding… there’s darkness all night

The sun… in your absence, feels shining is not right

Trees bow down to a breeze with no vigor left to fight

The chirping of birds does not feel so sweet

The smiles of children, seems to be incomplete

Looking around, a distinct emptiness fills the air

Weird thoughts creep up, cornered in a haunting lair

Tears flow down the cheek, reminiscing the past

The ship of life seems to have a broken mast

The spirits that keep things lively, have lost their essence

Reality seems to have lost its grandeur … in thy absence

The Johny

17 August 2007